Brooks shocks us all...

Before I get started let me say this. I think everyone was pronouncing "Antigua" wrong. I thought it was pronounced an-tee-gwa, not an-tee-guh. That just sounds stupid. But whatever I tried not to yell at them through my television every time they say it weird.

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Okay so today is the finale part one. Chris Harrison promises it to be the most dramatic season finale ever. And he really means it this time.
Let's get started with the dates.

First there's Drew. His date with Des goes really well, like always. They talk, kiss, talk, kiss. . . kiss more. He expresses his feelings. More kissing. That's about it. I love the guy but the way they edited him kissing her all the time makes me not want to watch his date so much.

On to Chris' date. I actually don't really remember it. I remember he read her another poem. But that's all that is coming to my brain right now. Does that mean it was boring and uneventful? Probably. I do recall their transportation though. It was none other than the much missed helicopter. Where were you all season? Okay moving on.

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Let's talk about Brooks for a minute.
The guy has been a front runner since day one. We all knew that and had it confirmed when Des told Chris Harrison she was in love with Brooks. That settled things. She was going to choose him at the end and the others were there just to keep the show going. Wow wouldn't want to be Chris or Drew right now.
Like I predicted in my last blog post, it would be all smiles in part one and tears in part two. Well so far I was almost right. Half the episode was happy and the rest was filled with tears. But this isn't about me at all, it's about Des and Brooks's journey to happiness. Or so we thought. . .

So first Brooks flies home to talk to his family. Um why? I don't understand why he has to fly home this week when he was home last week to spend time with them. Why didn't he talk to them then? Whatever. So after talking to them he knew what he had to do: break up with Des. Then he talked to Chris Harrison about it thinking Chris might help him with the situation. And I watched all the Chris talks with bachelor/bachelorettes and all their talks don't help anyone. He sits there and asks questions that end up leaving the bachelor/bachelorettes even more confused than they were.

But anyway, I bet Chris was hella pissed when Brooks told him he wasn't in love with Des. After seeing the joy in Des' eyes and hearing her say she is in love with Brooks when she and Chris had their one on one talk, and now hearing Brooks reveal this shocker, it must have made him fume inside. I would definitely be angry and want to punch the guy. But what can ya do when you want to love someone and just don't. You can't force it like he said. So I think he did the right thing leaving except I wish he would have figured it out sooner rather than wait until this late in the process. He absolutely broke Des' heart and she admitted she wanted to go home.

Wow I wonder what the other guys must have thought when they watched this episode [especially if she picked one of them]. She admitted that she didn't want to share her heart and when she went on dates with other guys she wished she was with Brooks. Ouch. That's a major stab in the heart if you ask me. Especially for Drew, He invested 100% of his heart and soul into loving her and to hear her say that. . . I can't even imagine. I would have some serious questions for homegirl if I was Chris or Drew after that. I think I would go ape shit on her. Back to the episode. . .

When Brooks finally confronted Des about his feelings it went like this: 

"um." [5 min pause]

"i" [5 min pause]

Des is already crying by this point before he has said anything

"i'm sorry" [5 min pause]

"please don't cry" that's what happens when you dump a girl who loves you

"i dont" [5 min pause]

more crying

"i care about you [pause] but i don't love you"

she tells him she loves him.

"why didn't you tell me?" uhh bro, she is not allowed to say that

he's crying, she's sobbing. It's all really sad to watch.

by now he has said i'm sorry a billion times.

he leaves. she keeps crying.

end of episode.

This conversation lasts like twenty minutes.

So all the drama and tears we saw in the previews were edited to be about Drew but were actually about Brooks. He is the one who leaves and not Drew. I knew it was right not to believe the previews. They edit it so beautifully to make us think one thing is true when it's completely false. I knew they twisted it somehow. And now we know. Wow. I can't believe Brooks left. Talk about shocking.

We now know why his feelings were slow. There's always a reason for everything. And this is it: he didn't feel it with her. And that just sucks. I feel bad for her I really do. I've had my heart shattered in a million pieces once and it was the most depressing month of my life. Followed by another month of anger and then a few more weeks of sadness before I really got over it. It still saddens me thinking about it. But you get over it. Time heals. Des will get over Brooks and hopefully find happiness in someone else.

                                         
                                          Brooks and Desiree's journey. . . how did it come to this?

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Next week is the finale part two and two guys are left: Chris and Drew. Which is really surprising because RS said Brooks was the winner and clearly he isn't. Unless he comes back next week. But will he? Can he? And why would he? He told Des he doesn't love her and shattered her heart. So why would he come back after one week? You can't change your mind and suddenly love her in a week after leaving. Unless he loved her all along but didn't know it. Hmm. We shall see.. But I definitely wouldn't trust him if he came back. So where does that leave us now? Des heartbroken and wanting to go home. And RS probably freaking out somewhere because he is wrong and he is never wrong. Well I think he was wrong one other time. But anyway. 

What will happen now? I know she won't leave empty handed. I mean she can, Brad did. But I highly doubt she will. Let us examine the options. . . there are two wonderful guys left: Chris and Drew. Can she overcome her love and heartbreak for Brooks and choose one of these guys? Now that Brooks is gone, she has to focus on these guys and really think about who she wants to marry. They were her second and third choice so she probably never considered them as her husband but the terrible has happened and now she has to sit in a corner by herself in fetal position with a teddy bear and some ice cream and actually consider as one of the remaining two men as her husband. My thoughts? Choose Chris. They have way more in common with each other than her and Drew. And she has said in a voice over [probably because she had to] that she sees Chris as a potential husband. They share their love or poetry. That's love. Ya'll can communicate through poems instead of verbally. That's great. 

But then there's Drew. When she describes him, she talks about all the good qualities he has and how much he loves her and his face and body how she loves that. But not once does she mention her future with him. She never talks about her feelings for him and that makes me think she is not on the same page as he is. So it's kind of like her and Brooks. She is behind Drew as Brooks was behind her. I love analogies. They're fun. But what do I know how she feels about Drew really? Like I said, it's all edited to fit a story. She could have said she loves Drew and sees a future with him and it was cut out so who knows. I look at both pictures and not only what is shown in tv. I guess you can call me wise. 

Holy crap this a ridiculously long post. Terribly sorry about that. Once I start writing about something I'm passionate about and have many thoughts on, it gets long. But I think I'm done. 

See ya next week. And for the love of God Des, please choose Chris he is perfect for you! Let me have Drew. Or at least let him find a girl who gives 100% of herself to him like he gave to Des. I know I would give Drew 100% of me.

Until next time. . .

xo

The Men Tell All

Men Tell All... tonight? A week early? I wonder why they decided to do that. Maybe because they didn’t want Drew to be with the other men or maybe he didn’t want to or something. It has always aired before the finale and now they change it? Something big must have happened.

It should be very interesting. And sad because Drew won’t be there.

Fast forward. . . 

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So they dedicated a whole episode to the James thing and now they are still talking about it. Ugh.Wait so next week is the finale? Whaaat? So three guys will meet her family, three guys will get fantasy suites… wait how is that gonna work? Fantasy suite tonight and the finale tomorrow? I don’t get it. Why must it change! Why cut a week?! 

Ali, Ashley, and Emily… Yes EMILY… are there to give Des some advice. Emily is so pretty. . .

Okay so the finale is two parts. What the heck. Predictions: day one will go great, everyone's in love; day two will be hell. I imagine there will be no fantasy suites. We will see. It should be good. The editing makes it look like Des doesn’t choose anyone but they are gifted in making people believe what's not true. She will choose Brooks we all know. She even said she’s in love with him even though he hasn’t said it yet. 

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Then men/women tell all episodes are my least favorite. So this post is way short because nothing happened that we didn't see before. It was mostly about James and his crap, a lot of yelling between him, Mikey and Kasey, then some Ben time, and later some Zak time and Juan Pablo time. The end. Juan Pablo for next bachelor! That would be way awesome. I love that guy. So sweet. Or Zak. He would make a good bachelor also. Both would be good to watch. 

Until next time. . .

xo

Drew is not gay!!!!

Look how adorable he is!

So I did a Google search on Drew Kenney and most of the articles were about questioning Drew's sexuality and gay claims. Come on people he is not gay! Just because he has perfect skin, perfect hair, perfect smile, perfect basically everything doesn't mean anything except he cares about his appearance and I love that about him. I really like the guy and have since the premiere episode. He has always stood out for me mainly because of how freaking adorable he is but as the weeks went by I like him more and more because of his personality and who he is as a person. I see him as such a sweetheart, caring, and romantic man. He has all the qualities I look for in a husband and I wish I could meet him. To everyone who believes he is gay just because he dresses fashionably and cleans up nice, y'all can shove it up your you-know-whats. Why would he go on this show and put himself through everything if he were gay? It doesn't make any sense. So yeah he's not gay and y'all disgust me for coming to that conclusion. Leave the guy alone.

Now that I have cleared the air about this whole gay thing let's get back to discussing the show.
James James James. What should I say about James? Where shall I start? At first I liked the guy, he seemed like he was into Desiree and seemed like a caring and passionate guy. Well after this last episode he has changed my mind. Sure he may have been edited poorly like many are but that doesn't affect my dislike of him any less. That whole conversation he had with Mikey shouldn't have happened in the first place. He could have handled it differently. If he had (or hadn't) said what the guys claim he said, it doesn't matter. The point is he should have defended himself more effectively. Well first off, why are you thinking about a life after Desiree? This means you aren't in it for the long run. If you want to marry Des, she is the only girl you need to be concerned of and think about forever. FOREVER. Not only for a few months or a few years even but forever. So to hear him even talking about an alternate reality, as he called it, made me look at him in a new way. He also kept saying he didn't bring it up, Mikey did. Who cares who brought it up that's so not the point, you still talked about it. He could have very easily said, "Hey Mikey yeah that's all great for you buddy but I'm here for Des and I want to see how our relationship progresses." That's it. Then there would be no drama.

Moving on to the soccer date. . .

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James irritated me so badly on this date! Yeah he was upset but come on at least pretend to have fun and not ruin it for the rest of the guys. The worst sportsmanship award goes to. . . [drum roll] . . . James! He just stood like a scared kitten in front of the goal . Sure he moved around a little but he mostly just watched as the ball went in the goal as he stood by. He basically didn't give a sh*t about anything at that point. I am so glad Des sent him home. Good bye James. 

Okay that's pretty much all that's happened in one episode: James drama, failed soccer game, and Drew's date with Des (along with the online gay claims). Humorous side note: I absolutely loved Brooks' impression of Juan Pablo during the soccer game. It was fabulous! Made me laugh. No more Des speaking spanish to him at the rose ceremony. It was cute the first two times but after that it was time to stop. That time has come. Sad to see you go, Juan Pablo. I gathered that both Kasey and Brooks are sexist on account of them commenting on Des' team of female soccer players. Well thanks to James' poor soccer playing, the girls kicked the guys' butts! They probably would have anyway with or without James' help. Since, you know, they are a professional team and all. 

Photos credit: ABC (collage created by me)

So the previews for the rest of the season look awesome! I can't wait to see what happens with all the guys and Des. It looks like more drama is on the way, especially with Drew. But I know they are twisting it and making it seem like it's way worse than it really is. Take Sean's letter for example. Do you remember that preview last season? They twisted the heck out of that to make it so dramatic and bad when in reality it was a freaking love letter from Catherine. Ugh it made me so angry! They edit it that way so you wonder all the bad things that could be. Is the letter from his mom telling him to not marry anyone? Is it from Catherine telling him she is backing out? Is it from someone in the past? Why is he crying? It must be something bad. That's what we were led to believe. Then the episode airs and the letter ends up being a major disappointment. They can also take the audio out of a scene and put new audio in like they did with Sean when he was tearing up while reading his letter. In the preview we heard Sean say "I can't believe she did this to me" but he never said that when the episode aired. ABC is so sneaky when editing the show. So with this evidence I have warned you to not believe the previews. They don't portray the truth! Drew is having the same edit so don't jump to any wild conclusion of what might happen. [I have read some theories]

So as I was reading about Drew's gay claims that people were making, I also read about their thoughts of what they think will happen with him and Des. I don't believe any bit of it. I am not believing anything that is shown to me in previews and I will not be making any decisions or having any predictions about Drew because I know that it is edited to be dramatic. So until the episode airs I will just love Drew like I have been and think nothing but the best of him. It probably won't end up as bad as it is being portrayed. They showed all the guys crying and leaving. Well yeah all of them but one will have to leave eventually so I find it humorous that people say they are leaving on their own instead of being eliminated by Des. Ha. Ha. Ha.
Next week's episode should be very interesting.

artwork by me

There's three surprise amigas next week in Portugal that visit Des. I am so excited for that! And how amazing is this artwork?! I created it myself. 

Until next time...

xo